Ever wondered about the why of Suicide?

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Halloo,

I have always wondered when people commit suicide why the people around them always say they are surprised and never expected it.

I have not been affected by suicide in any form, so I have no idea what the aftermath is like. All I can do is imagine.

So pardon my ignorance if I speak wrongly.

I imagined this must be really traumatic for close friends and family. Some may even blame themselves.

I have always wondered that if someone’s pain is so much that they decided to end it all, there must have been at least a sign or a cry for help somewhere or somehow that those around did not notice.

My recent journey down to rock bottom gave me an insight into what may have been going through some of these people’s minds.

I have never contemplated suicide in my life, but I have reached a lot of low points in my life that make me feel that I will never get up again.

My recent problems pushed me to this edge again. A place where I have done everything in my power not to go again. I reached a new rock bottom and this time I am not sure I have the strength to climb out again.

I remembered looking at myself in the mirror and the image that I saw was so badly mangled that I burst into tears. I asked myself- Will I ever smile again?

But this particular struggle was brutal because I had to do it all by myself.

I have people who are very busy. And I quite understand that, just because you are very sick doesn’t mean other people’s life has to stop.

The bottom line- I was vulnerable. I felt invisible like I don’t matter to anyone. I looked and feel like a freak.

I had no one reassuring me that things will get better.

The people around me will rather talk about doctors and what medical professionals are saying.

Where was I emotionally? Alone!!!

It hits me then- if I killed myself what will these people say? Oh they have no idea the pain I was going through?

I am here now, in pain, as I have been for years. I talked, I cried, I shouted, I got angry, I got mad, I did everything that I could to get my people to know my pain.

But everybody decides to act as if everything is normal. Totally ignoring this pain.

This may not be the case for every suicide case, but people going through difficult times may be helped and saved by showing compassion, love, and by Listening.

Many people do not realise that a lot of people with fibromyalgia, chronic pain, and other invisible illnesses commit suicide. Yes, what they are dealing with is tiring. But what is most difficult is the attitude of family and friends. The mental anguish caused by these people can cause more suffering than the chronic illness itself.

Read about it here….

Chronic Pain is more aggravated by the nonchalant attitude of people that should care the most.

People who are fed up should just leave, no use hanging around with a bad attitude. Leave and stop making a bad situation worse by acting like you are chained down.

It should be about Love, not duty. Immediately it starts feeling like duty, it is not right anymore.

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Stay with me,

Ruka

Stay with me,

Ruka

About Post Author

Ruka

My name is Ruka. Born and bred in Nigeria. Now living in Ireland. I am a Woman, Feminist, Wife, Mother, Muslim, Black, and African. I am an Entrepreneur who also works in Finance Administration. I am a Fibromyalgia & Chronic Pain Warrior. I love writing and hope to make a name for myself doing it.

rukaganiyu5@gmail.com

https://www.rukasplace.com

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