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Halloo,

A few years back when I started my small business I promised myself that no matter how bad I am feeling, no matter how tired I am, no matter how bad my pain is… I will make sure I carry out my business activities daily.

I have managed to do this. Thank God for that.

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But it has not been an easy thing to do. A really tough thing to maintain daily especially on days when I would rather be in bed, left alone, doing nothing, just feeling sorry for myself.

Now I have to say that doing these activities daily really helped me a lot in building some attributes that I wasn’t naturally blessed with. I am learning to be patient, that things can’t just happen just because I want it to. A really hard lesson for someone like me.

I learned to work with my pain. I developed a lot of coping strategies. This helped a great deal when I decided to go back to work.

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I am grateful to God for giving me a chance to discover myself.

My major headache is with people who find it hard to believe that I can’t be around chatting on the phone or social media with them 24/7.

Someone once accused me of snubbing him by not replying and accepting his request to chat. I explained, politely, that I wasn’t feeling too good. He said he saw me advertising my business so I couldn’t be that sick. I just ended that conversation.

Life is not a bed of roses. I know that to make my Small Business work I have to make a lot of sacrifices, especially since I don’t have the amount of Strength and Energy most people have. I had to dig deep and find means of working with what I have.

The work most people will complete in a day may take me 2 weeks to complete. I made peace with that. I only looked hard into how to make the little work that I can do go so far.

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That is why it is important to discover oneself. Don’t lie to yourself about your strengths and weaknesses.

When I stopped feeling sorry for myself and decided to fight back. I took control. Part of that control is making a promise to myself about making my life counts for something. Making my life relevant.

Making myself proud of me, is a promise I made to myself.

I am not self-praising here. I am telling it the way I see it. I knew some of my weaknesses and strengths. I am still discovering more as I progress in this journey. Each discovery is analyzed and used to the best of my ability.

Discover your strengths and weaknesses and make them work for you.

A weakness acknowledged can be turned into a strength.

I do all my physical work on my pain-free days. So, on rough days I can be curled up in bed and do my non-physical work.

I let go of things that don’t serve me in achieving my goals. A hard trade-off in some cases. But I have no room for sentiments.

People too! No matter how much I love you, if we are vibrating at different frequencies, we will have to keep our relationships long distance.

I made it a habit not too expect too much from people, because I don’t have the energy to deal with fuck-ups. And if someone keeps messing me around, have no respect for me or my time. I will gently remove myself from such relationships.

Now, don’t get me wrong, I know I am not perfect, neither am I saying I am never in the wrong. No-NO!

I just don’t have the energy to deal. Straightforward people are my favourite people. I don’t want to read meaning into what they are saying or doing, I don’t want to guess, I don’t want to keep wondering, I don’t want to tiptoe around you so I don’t hurt you.

People I can absolutely open my heart too, without inhibition. We don’t have to agree on everything, but we have mutual respect for each other’s opinion. Those are my people.

Not a lot of people around that fits that category, I am afraid.

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So every day I come out and talk about my Small Business even when I am in severe pain or simply not feeling up to it. I have no choice because I have made a promise to myself, and I always keep my promise.

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Stay with me,

Ruka

Stay with me,

Ruka

About Post Author

Ruka

My name is Ruka. Born and bred in Nigeria. Now living in Ireland. I am a Woman, Feminist, Wife, Mother, Muslim, Black, and African. I am an Entrepreneur who also works in Finance Administration. I am a Fibromyalgia & Chronic Pain Warrior. I love writing and hope to make a name for myself doing it.
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